Lately, I’m green with Envy

Hello loves,

Today I come to you with something that is not easy for me to express.

Its been a week or so that I feel envious during random and unpredictable times.

I hate this feeling.

Instead of being inspired or motivated by the women that I wish I could be more like, I’m just plain envious.

It’s a disgusting feeling and one I am embarrassed to admit.

I’m envious of beautiful women with successful careers. The ones doing all the things I wish I was. The ones with the creativity, diligence and ambition I wish I had, and frankly, it makes me sick to my stomach.

Luckily, I was listening to the Happier Podcast by Gretchen Rubin and Elizabeth Craft a few days ago. They have an episode dedicated to envy that helped me look at this horrible emotion from a different perspective.

“If you really confront envy, it can tell you something useful about yourself. Envy means somebody has something that you wish you had. And when you know that, then you can ask yourself, “Is there a way that I can have that thing too? That envy is shining a spotlight on something in MY life that I feel is missing.”

With my internship coming to an end, and me being lost not knowing what’s next, I can’t help but envy those women that seem to have it all figured out.

Identifying WHO you’re envious of can also say a lot about your character and what you believe you are capable of.

For example, I would never be jealous of Beyoncé because I just can’t be a Beyoncé. But if I’m jealous of a certain woman, it probably means that I deep down know that I am able to achieve that same level of success dressed in my personalized flair.

“Envy is an important clue. You can take it and turn into something positive.”

I challenge you.

Next time you feel envious, identify the emotion and evaluate the meaning. Build a plan for yourself. Embody hard work. 

And when you least expect it, you will attain your own version of those yearning desires.

A flower does not think of competing to the flower next to it. It just blooms.



P.S. The podcast episode I am referring to is here. Quotes are Gretchen Rubin.

6 thoughts on “Lately, I’m green with Envy

  • Reply Marva Piper September 2, 2016 at 3:39 am

    I love you Z-Dawg. You are so cute. And Real. You inspire me in certain ways and I think that is awesome. I love reading your perspective and advice.

    You are a really good person. 🙂

    • Reply Zayda September 2, 2016 at 12:26 pm

      I love you too, my Marva! You inspire me to not take crap from anyone 😀 HAHA for real though. :)Thank you so much for being so kind and reading my blog.

  • Reply Alejandra September 1, 2016 at 3:51 am

    This is so beautiful ! Your blog about envy! I’ve felt the same way lately and I love how you have the courage to admit and even write about it. That’s a beautiful about you. I love your posts and blog. Keep on shining

    • Reply Zayda September 1, 2016 at 8:38 am

      Thank you so much, Ale! You know what is beautiful about you? Your passion for your goals. YOU keep on shining my love. You’ve got this!!!

  • Reply Yoli August 27, 2016 at 5:48 am

    I love that you’re becoming so active with your blog! Please always post! I will soon join you amongst the #LatinaBloggers

    I’m slightly jealous of the fact that people have graduated from universities. I’m jealous of really intelligent people/professionals, but it also serves as inspiration to be better and do better.

    • Reply Zayda August 30, 2016 at 2:40 am

      Thank you for noticing and reading! 🙂 I look forward to reading your posts. 😀 And yes, it’s a natural feeling that everyone gets once in a while. What differentiates the strong from the weak are the reactions that follow the emotion. Good thing is that you motivate yourself! woo woo Get it boo! <3

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